...and update, I shall

Do not ask me why I have not been updating as often as usual because, to be honest, I haven't the faintest. Lack of inspiration? Lack of anything interesting to relay? Lack of time? All of the above, methinks.

So, Miss Belle. In point form, please tell us what has been happening in your life?

I was extremely emotional last night, for some reason. The Mother and I started talking and at first the topic was relationships and men. I realised what the reason is behind the recurring Jack dreams - the betrayal is what my mind has not yet overcome. The fact that he couldn't wait another week or two for me to move out before he slept over at his new love's home. The fact that he had so little respect for me that he didn't care whether he hurt me or not, his only concern was his new-found happiness. On top of this I admitted to myself that I am not, in fact, finished with the pyschologist. I will have to schedule another session or four to discuss the last few months.
After that I finally found the opportunity I needed, I finally told Mother just how much I love her, and how sorry I am for ever leaving her alone. I finally thanked her for sacrificing so much for her children - she did her best under horrible circumstances and as it turns out, her best was pefect. I cried, she cried...then I realised how drunk I was and went to bed

I got awesome feedback on my Grasshopper pics...quite chuffed with that.

I realised that I am not, it would seem, a blogger. I cannot write about little bitty things that happen in my everyday life. Maybe it's because I've always believed that no-one finds what I say all that interesting, so I have to write about monumental things. Only then do I feel it's worth reading. I just cannot imagine that all you beautiful people out there want to read about what my dogs did yesterday, or how awesome cute my cat is or how we got new desks at work or how I forgot my cellphone at home the other. I mean, would you?

So ya...one day soon I will be fully over the hurt that bastard man inflicted on me and I will be able to move on fully with my life.

And that, I fear, is that...hope you enjoyed the update